Devotions

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Fertilizer Evokes Happy Memories




The nostril-scorching aroma immediately sent me back to the happiest seventeen springs of my life. Each of those springs was heralded by daffodils poking through leftover fall leaves and a trip to Lowe’s Home Improvement Center.


Today the sharp tang of pallets and pallets of bagged fertilizer activated synapses in my brain. That smell meant it was time for the annual state of the lawn survey. Back when I had a lawn, I'd use those walk-arounds to note patches that needed to be reseeded and areas where the wild onions flourished. That began my list of must-dos and for the garden. 

So walking into Lowe’s today to buy squirrel repellent, was a let down.

 I yearned for the gearing-up of another season’s beauty and fruitfulness, dirty knees and broken fingernails, digging and watching my arms firm up (as much as possible in a woman my age).


With no yard to fertilize, no flower beds to rake out, no searching for the tips of iris or asparagus or the buds on the blueberries, spring feels flat.

I lament the absence of tree frogs singing near the pond the next field away.  I’ve had to settle for a recorded version as my phone’s ring tone.

And the repellent hasn't discouraged the persistently curious rodent digging in my flower pots--my only sign of spring.

Monday, March 11, 2019

P.S. Valentine's Day and Trader Joe's Amaryllis

Post Script to the last two blogs:

re Feb 11th post:

Hubbie and I traded our notes in the 642 Things to Love book for two weeks, and then I realized he hadn't given it back to me. I couldn't find it on his end table. He dug around in the drawers, and pulled it out.  "You put our love in the bottom drawer" I teased.

I took it back to my private space and teared up as I read the astute and tender comments he made. Our love is not in the bottom drawer.




On my writing table is the same waxed amaryllis bulb I wrote about January 31st. It has bloomed for the third time. The stem is not as tall, the blossoms are not as big, but they are lovely. And they are a testament to the drive to thrive that is innate to living things. I'm  ashamed of myself to note I don't always have as much tenacity as a waxed ball of plant cells. 


How about you, how do you "fertilize" the desire to thrive?